cant remember the last time i posted something but here it is.
Everything seems so out of control. Perhaps because people do get tired and eventually stop trying. Funny how the saying goes “just let nature take its course” and everything will be fine. What a lie. When you stop trying, when you just let things be, everything takes a dip and spins out of control. I say that with reference to every single nook and cranny of life. Academics, social life, friendships, relationships, your own health and whatever you can think of. Imagine if you stop trying to call your friends up, the distance will just grow gradually. A misunderstanding left unattended might even put an end to the friendship. Humans love to self-contradict. The same with saying “you have to learn to let go and move on” after someone -touchwood- died. I mean seriously, if everyone just let go, then what is the point of living? The world have been searching for the meaning of life even since time immemorial. The fact that people live and die doesnt really make much sense itself, coupled with the saying “let go of the memory” just make the true meaning of life even more intangible. If we were to let go after someone died, then whats the point of the person’s existence to begin with? How nonsensical .__.
So i practically rant that whole chunk in two minutes. hahahaha. My point is, My life is out of control. GREAT. To be honest, it was because i took a… three months? no i think mere two months break from my own life. I practically live in this souless body for two months and just “let things be”. Yea. It was easy for me but perhaps not so much for the people around me? since i think some kinda wonder what was wrong with me. I was just too tired to care. Now the major problem is Promos. Less than 10 days and i barely started. I dont want to retain and i have no idea how it is even possible for me to cram everything into that brain of mine. Simply impossible.
After promos, it will be time to get my life back. To really catch up with many many people whom i neglected for the past few months due to crazy JC life and past few weeks due to the major soul switching.
In life, you simply dont get to take breaks. You can’t afford to because the world simply continue spinning without you. That just contradicts what i said about life being meaningless if its all about moving on.
Oh well, at least it proved my point on how self contradictory humans can be.
Cheers for a better day. Perhaps a decent non-retain promos grade too.